In John chapter 16, Jesus says “But I will see you again, and your hearts will rejoice, and no one will take your joy away from you. On that day you will not question me about anything.” The last line hit me. 

On that day you will not question me about anything. 

We always hear people talk about what they will ask Jesus when they get to heaven. Here, He is telling us that we won’t do that. As I thought through that I wondered why. Wouldn’t we be curious? Wouldn’t we want to know why we needed to suffer through that terrible time in our life? Wouldn’t we question why that person so dear to us needed to die so suddenly? I felt Him whisper to my soul, You won’t question me because you will already know. You will understand the “why” as you continue to become close to me and unite yourself with me.

As we develop that relationship with God, He reveals things to us. It comes slowly and usually when we aren’t expecting it. But He starts to heal those wounds. He breathes peace into our hearts and shows us the good that has come out of the suffering. At the end, when we enter into heaven and run into His arms, nothing else will matter. No one can take away our joy, no one can separate us from Him.

Man, I wish I didn’t have to wait until then to fully understand and to have that never-ending peace! How do we get through the now? I don’t know about you, but the realizations and healing God is doing on my heart feels like it’s happening at a snail’s pace. The in-between is hard to push through. It’s difficult to continue to trust and have faith that we will one day understand. 

I was watching a movie the other night with my husband about a broken man going back to his high school and coaching the basketball team there. He used to be the basketball star there when he was a kid and was now an alcoholic after having lost his son to cancer. He was so broken and needed almost as much healing, if not more, than the boys on the team. During one of the games, he said to the team, “Do the little things right. All the little things add up.”

I get so caught up in the big moments and the accomplishments in my life that I forget all the little things. After I had to step back from my dream career, I felt so lost and useless. My body was so broken and tired and I didn’t have the energy to do much of anything. But I could make dinner for my husband, who was working so hard everyday to provide for us. I couldn’t work a 9-5 job, but I could grocery shop and make sure the house was clean. I wasn’t a hot-shot anything, but I was able to stay in touch with old friends and ask about their lives and make sure they knew they were loved and important. 

Those little things add up. Do those little things well and with joy. We will understand in the end why God has us here, but in the meantime trust Him enough to live your little moments with as much joy as you can muster. You will rejoice in the end, and no one can take that away from you.